I can not get rid of these dreams.
Can not get rid these thoughts.
The only thing that I can control is this ship.
It is the only real thing out here.
It is keeping me focused.
And that focus is the only thing making this life of mine
somewhat worth living.
It keeps my soul alive."
I would say homesick,
but I don't think that a home ever existed for me.
No this feeling that I have is the feeling of emptiness,
because I regret nothing and miss nothing.
There is no past and maybe no future for me.
All I have is this very moment."