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I haven't updated in a while it's mainly due some irl stuffs, have happened which I can't speak about it for personal reasons for the sake of irl life but a another good news this month I have finally got a new computer and it is running well! I'm so fucking happy, that I have finally have a new computer and perhaps in the future I would be able to be more productive in the future, who knows thought! ;)

Hey everyone I was supposed to write an update about this, but I was being a little busy while I came back from vacation some stuffs have been depressing and interesting in my vacation remember when, I said it would be my first time for me to visit Europe? Well in that previous article update's blog, it has honestly poorly aged because it didn't actually happened due to some irl personal stuffs but otherwise I did actually enjoyed my vacation, in my country, in Morocco which it was sick.

Oh wow it's been a while, since the may update ya know but also by the way happy pride month! So far this month has been a banger part of my life, I was in a HUGE extremely hyped spiderman mood for Spiderverse 2 and I finally got time to watch it during the first release week! I've watched Spiderverse 1, before the sequel came out in the exciting/hyping time! So about irl stuffs issues; well for y'all I have a HUGE surprise hyped and even exciting news too! I'll be in Europe for the first time, in next month! Visiting Europe was always something I've always dreamed, of it forever I'm so fucking hyped to know that my dream has turned into a reality irl mental health's status wise I've been feeling MUCH better than the past months I've been through of it speaking of it emotionally it, also Ik that I keep talking about the ''Summer Sales'' thing, I won't shut up about it and, I'm so fucking hyped for it! I wasn't in a mood to make a update blog, when May has ended and I've been kinda busy and thinking a LOT about my exciting first time trip for Europe, I'm going in it! What does this, all mean? Well this mean, I'm going to be less active in-voyage and expect me to post badass pictures stuffs when I'm in Europe! Going in Europe, it will be a goated and a peak adventure, for me I'm excited to feel actually inspired into the next level!

Again happy pride month, and hope's everyone doing well! :D

Hey hey, it's been a while everyone I'm still here and still existing! I know some of y'all miss me but anyways after Ramadan has ended me and my family we've brought a Palestinian flag to show solidarity with Palestine when it was Eid! I am still waiting for that ''Graphic Card'' I was told and been promised of it still patient about it actually - Aka know, as the 3060 cuz I've always wanted to upgrade my Computer and would love to buy a new drive as well on my life's update stuff regardless about it. Lately, I've been focused so much about how excited I am about my ''first time'' trip in Europe which I'm going for in Summer! I've been working on my ''summer sale'' since that June is soon ''But, dabu May has just started!''- Who cares, why not doing it earlier for summer times? But ye, I've been making a notepad txt list for it lmao. Also, I have to watch the first Spiderverse movie because I'm so ultimately excited for the sequel which that's coming in Summer! I haven't go to watch, the first Spiderverse but this time I'll have a time where I will actually make it happens hopefully before it's too late! I'm still excited about the upcoming Counter-Strike 2, and looking forward about it in general! So in short, when I'll be Europe for the first time- I gotta photographing stuffs to feels inspired (textures, cities, environments etc) for my ''personal project'', that I'm dreaming and thinking about it and also in general I've been finally waited for this moment to visit actually Europe for the first time! So ye, this is pretty much all exciting news I'm super looking forward it! Mental Health wise- It's kind of complicated and complex, but most of the time I'm chilling and vibin in my lovely room I've been feeling super mentally confusingly drained about the current state of the world's stuffs y'know? Not just that, but also with families issues and etc. But other wise, I'm doing well and so fucking excited for Summer! First time, trip in Europe let's fucking goooo! :D

Hello been a while everyone! I am proud to share and announcing, that my "new" PC is finally actually here it has been a awaiting ride it was in a wild way also I'm celebrating Ramadan and I'm fasting! Life update wises I'm so ultimately excited that we are living in a exciting times with Counter Strike 2 and other stuffs! There was some "cryptic" moments that happened me which it was sounded spooky. All thought it's such a fucking amazing exciting time! Here's the new PC I'm showing to you y'all! Ramadan Mubarak everyone!

I always dream and thinking about it, it's such a badass and cool feeling when those moments I always thinks about my dream project but it's something I'll tell you in a nutshell; I hope hopefully it will bring a surprise and had a revolutionary impact in the Valve's Modding Scene community which I knows that to myself that will it'll take a long time and when it will be ready it's something I'm optimistic about it currently since my PC is unable it will happens whenever I'll get my new PC who knows when I'll actually be back in action whenever I will feels like it things will get a lot of time first and through it!

Hello everyone sorry for the quiet absence, I've throught to make a "update" so I decided to do it for now because I wasn't in the mood to do it earlier days ago it's been since january my PC have been had a unfortunately moments that sad to announce it- My pc have been unable since a month ago I remember we've checked what's going and etc the only mainly issues is that my PC itself by the way had a black screen issues we checked the rest which it's fine and the screen is broken anymore. I was told that I'll get a new PC at bc that's something I always wish for one beside my unfortunately news things was chill in my life I've been through in a personal cryptic/surreal moments which I'll says it's indescribable to say but yea when I mean "by" that I've been through in a social isolated/disconnecting moments and that kind of stuffs in general one of the main things since that my PC is unable in the those times I'm sticking to my 2 phones at the moment once I'll get a new PC hopefully I will be back in action.

Holy shit it's fucking finally 2023, the years has been a wild and insane ride meanwhile in the new year I'm currently exploring and developing my new year resolutions but also I am excited by the fact in summer I'll go in Europe for the first time this year thanks through my new passport I got back then in November I look forward what will come next to my future, my life and such things the future will be something for me which it's important to say it's something that sounds indescribable.

As MJ said "Just beat it, beat it!"

All thought happy new year!!! :]

It's been a while since the latest blog I've written on my life, I've been lately much better these days due to some irl stuff that I've entered a new chapter of my life while that the Winter Steam Sales are on the horizon I'm so excited for it why I mean by ''I'm doing better and entering a new chapter in my life'' for various specifically mental health reasons the past weekend I've had very 2 important appointment that have changed my life I remember I've talked to my Doctor on how I feel and they were actually agree that School isn't needed for me for the sake of my mental health when I went to the meeting at school the other days we've talked about the thing that I quitted especially for the sake of mental health and they'll understand it how I was feeling. It was one of the better decision I ever had in my life and changed my life my doctor told me ''school isn't needed for you anymore since after many mess stuff that happens in the past'' with all the past years that'll have tormented and a miserable past I've had I see my future in a good way after the appointment (very very weeks ago), I feels so much better that I don't know what to describe and I am looking forward of my future's goals and stuff in Summer me and my family are going to go in Europe as my first trip and first time thanks to my new pass port I had back in November then I'll be gong in France and other countries since that'll we will be able to get a car in there what a ride it was the past weeks it was in my life I'm honestly so happy that I am now in my new chapter of my life for the reasons you know I explained earlier. I'm honestly looking forward to explore myself more, trying to socialize, trying my best and etc.

*plays Ocean Man*

Ahhhh winter I always love winter and snow so much, I feels like in these days I feels so quiet and everything feels kinda quiet I haven't had good weekend in the past weeks I had a emotional breakdown and a recent emotional outbursts I did yesterday due to something personal issues and stuff like that whoever, in these times I feels like sometimes my mind is full of dark thoughts which it make me insane and I hate when that happens sometime I'm like how do...I explain it? I feels like I'm in these rough times and my anxiety have been increasing quite few a lot and it sucks but other wise I feels like I am probably somewhat lonely at this point (even thoughts I had friends) and I feel like I'm in the dark (ok that's kinda a bit too far..) but man this current weekend wasn't well for me I feels like I hate myself every times and in a few day (this friday) I have a appointment regardless about my current mental health state.